When I was fifteen
I was struggling to find those words
That lost in eloquence unsaid and I still am.
Struggle to understand what it was about
You simply being,
That went straight to my head.
Even now I've been struggling to find those words
But the worst part was to find me,
to find myself.
I was scared of everything,
I was naive
I'm scared to be in love again.
I was lost in the darkness where my demons are my best friends.
I don't even know how to describe how it feels like and
All i know everything was dark and i was really scared of falling.
I don’t want to be the perfectionist.
I don’t want the straight lines and dotted i’s.
I just want a boy to draw the night sky
On my thighs with his fingers,
The paint running down my legs
And forming puddles of stars when I walk.
I want this life to contain me, restrain me
Only for moment like a water jug until I spill,
Flooding every surface and seeping into skin.
After years I've been waiting for something miracle to happen,
There's a boy walked into my life,
and then it was you.
You saved me.
You saved me from a place where the dead lights thrive.
A please the heartless hunt the hopeful, just to make me feel alive.
You keeps the darkness where I can’t see it,
sprouting like flowers between your fingers
and I fit like bruises against your chest.
I'm sorry for being a burden to you,
I'm sorry that you have to take care of me
And i'm sorry that you have to change yourself for me.
The best part is that you taught me how to be strong,
You lead me to the right path,
You are the best thing that ever happened to me
And i am so thankful of what I've now, to have you in my life.
Thank you for showing me how to dance with darkness.
For bringing the dead inside of life.
